This past week or so have been a bit of an emotional roller coaster in our household.
We’ve had highs of Ethan now being able to call me mummy rather than ‘mum mum’ and Kayleigh has suddenly started drawing pictures of things we can actually recognise!
Then there are the lows, I’m due to start my next course this week. Yes, it’s great I’m starting it as it will give me a much better chance in progressing in my career, enabling me to provide a more secure future for our family. However, it’s going to be very stressful and a lot of hard over the next three months on top of a very hectic life I have already!
Then there was the letter I received regarding Kayleigh’s speech. She has been referred by the pre-school as they feel she struggles with some words. It hasn’t come out of blue; I knew she was being referred but I admit, I still cried.
I had that overwhelming feeling of guilt, as if I had failed her. Kayleigh is a bright girl. At three and a half she can sing the alphabet, tell you colours and shapes and count to 20, she just has a few issues with her pronunciation. However, I can’t help but feel that’s my fault as I’m a working mum. Maybe if I didn’t need to work I could have taken her to more classes/groups and spent more time with her this wouldn’t be the case.
I know it’s a completely irrational feeling, it’s just one of those things, but as parents we want the best for our children in everything they do. When they fall behind on a subject most of us question our parenting skills and wonder whether we could have done more.
Together we’ll get through the tough few months coming up and hopefully be stronger and happier for it. Wish us luck!